notes from The Magic Theater

For Madmen Only

Price of Admission Your Mind.

The correspondence of a madman:

9/14/09

Dear Argus,

I'm frustrated w/ me. I'm hardly done w/ sync, and no I haven't thrown in the towel--I've done this my whole life. I became aware of it when I was 19 in 1991. Themes. Things coming at me in seemingly organized packets. Leading. And I follow. Have followed. Fucking snakey road!

I'm in a battle w/ my ego.I know how good my findings are. They are good. No one sees my snycs like me. Attention though. This is the big hang up. I want the universe to say, "Ishmael, your syncs are the best, and truly you see to the core. To prove this, you will receive the adulation you deserve from you peers and fans."

The truth is that my syncs are my syncs and your syncs are yours. I follow my path, and you follow yours. What I write are the bread crumbs and silken thread I leave behind so I can find my way out of the labyrinth. I'm not doing it for any other reason than for myself. But, I can get wrapped up in it. Should "my path" illuminate someone else, wonderful. But my ego yearns to hear how good I am at my craft. The Sync Whole can be sink hole for me very easily. It's the underworld after all and we occupy this tenuous space for a reason--a reason that each of us must figure out for ourselves. I know I'm lost, yet I follow. But I can loose the path if I get distracted. The Sync Whole was distracting me from real life.

So I'm not done. Hardly.

I seek an authentic experience. Communion. I've been slowly trying to get to "know" the various syncsters, and I'm met w/ resistance. I know I add something to the team. And it's the team that make The Whole special. But I don't know what it's doing to me. . .

Here is a question. Do your syncs carry over into you "real" life? Mine do.

I have these two main spheres that I function in. I can see the macro in my micro. The syncs are the underworld and my life, Job, Family is where I do my work. My life is the syncs that I witness. I don't know which is driving, but they mesh definitely. The story I seek is the story I'm living and the actors I'm following are me most of the time or they are the people in my life, which are also me, for the most part.

The story is out there, I witness it, and then bring back here--no they happen pretty simultaneously.

Anway, I can see man. I've got a book that is working. Life is happening. I'm getting paid to blog at my job, it might blossom.

I don't know where I stand with The Whole. If I come back, you probably won't recognize me.

peace

9/15/09

Dear Argus,

Thanks for this and our dialog. I enjoy it.

When I first began this, synchromysticism, and this was after I left conspiracy behind, I realized that we were really on to something. I called our movement the new science. I could stand back and see how every sync-er was contributing to a change in perception--and that's the key, the change of our literal, post-scientific-revolution-mind that has lost the awe of the world w/ our literal perspective. When one of the definitions for myth became a lie, this is when one could see the trouble hanging on the horizon. Of course everything is necessary, and I don't say science is bad, just the perspective it created has fundamentally changed our relationship to The Story. One cannot explain 911 scientifically, and have it hold up. That day put awe back in my world. The rest of the good people decided not to question the scientific explanations of the day, they don't question much. I question everything.

Anyway--I observe things. I've had a lot of higher education too. 17 years (for one undergrad degree though! I tried to get into an MFA program this past year to no luck.) When I see the various syncers [maybe thats it. You put a sinker on your fishing line to make it go deep to catch the really big fish!]

sinker |ˈsi ng kər|

noun

1 a weight used to sink a fishing line or sounding line.

2 (also sinker ball) Baseball a pitch that drops markedly as it nears home plate.

3 a type of windsurfing board of insufficient buoyancy to support a person unless moving fast.

4 a doughnut.

I see us as a movement! Not some weird culty thing that students laugh and smirk about down the road, but a potential New Science revolution putting awe and the experience of being alive back into existence through our relationship with the story.

When I began, I read everything Jake wrote. I went back & watched every video and read every blog he ever posted. I focused almost entirely upon him. I didn't agree with everything, but found his tone and style very engaging and his flights of fancy seemed to be justified--his work seemed solid, not paranoid or schizophrenic which can happen, we are in tinfoil hat territory after all.

I read others too, but not like Jake. Secret Sun is good, and he may be the only professional we have--do you think that dude has a job? But, he is so literal! The metaphor is the truth. The symbol speaks but one must be transparent to the transcendent or they get stuck in they symbols as J. Campbell would say. The symbol points, but isn't the truth. And here were back to 21st C. American thinking. Jesus is the literal truth and not a pointer. Suggest otherwise and pay the price. Jim Carry is truth also as so many have shown, yet he stays a pointer. No one is worshiping him that I'm aware of.

I write so much.

So. . . Slowly I started taking on other syncers. I considered the movement. Everyone had something valid and interesting and I followed, but I wanted a community of scientists (I am not a scientist nor do I think all that logically. The importance of our "science" is transcending logic). I followed mostly in real time. I don't know why, but I didn't really explore any one syncer's background deeply.

Right now, you and toure's path have gotten so interesting. I can't believe how much time I give you two guys and I don' know if you aren't leading me somewhere seemingly insane? But I follow, eagerly.

I don't want to be legendary. I always come to this. Why am I doing what I do? Mostly because I'm compelled. I don't seek fame--I do want to reach the mind of an "other" though. I want communion. Gnosis? I see you well, Gunslinger. I guess I want company. I like to communicate, but I have to know that someone out there is engaged in the conversation with me.

So the blog can be a sketch pad that I mark up and then use to communicate w/ & to my work friends. Or it is the discussion bringing together disparate souls in the ether discussing their unique perspectives. I don't live in CO or Canada, The UK or FL, eastern Europe or NJ.

I think I'm going to read your entire back catalog. Maybe toure's as well. I have a hard time reading AFERRISMOON, but god her(?) stuff can really ring. I think she is in eastern Europe too. Fascinating, but not my thing. I like to read about various numerologies, but know that it's a sink hole for me!

Violator can do some magic as well. I think Jim and I are a lot alike. His construction is most like mine I think, but his path is so different. I can't believe how good Adam Star's stuff is, but he drops like once a year. I should read his back stuff too!

I really wanted to write an essay about what we do about a month ago. I was going to call it "Watching the Watchmen". Totally mainstream. But now I don't know. I'm compelled to write a couple plays.

Here is something you might understand. The color of the stone, and I do mean The Foundation Stone is yellow. The dome of the rock. I talked about this a bit when I was considering Jake's recent video about the heart. As westerners we know that the real heart of U.S. is Yellow Stone. It's a super volcano. Do we really want to open our heart?

-We'll definitely find the promised land then. . .

be well